I wanted to see the world
Not captured on a camcorder
Transmitted to passive viewers,
Nor in the form of mental images
While I read about other men’s travels.
I wanted to be free.
Free to roam, free to be lost.
Listening to nature’s call
To lead me where it wills.
I dreamed of endless nights
Where memories are replayed in a loop for eternity
Except they won’t be old memories
I would be making them every day
As I roam
I sought bliss
The kind of solace that only
A clear mind could give.
Even amidst turbulence and chaos
A sturdy mind trained to withstand the ills-
Of love, life and hell,
Up on some far away hill
Learning at the feet of better men
Whose lives have been devoted to finding peace.
I craved love
In the arms of another
An attraction unparalleled in the known universe
A recourse to rock me back
To life after my battles with the night.
I searched over and again
For a dream within a dream
Of a life that could be
Of love untainted
And memories of heaven.
I gave away time in exchange for space
But space was not what I needed;
Space was ever-present-
Time, my most precious present,
I squandered for more real estate.
Of worthless longing
That promised paradise
At the end of a tunnel
Or the lapse of time.
And while my dreams got bigger
My wings forgot how to flap
I became the legend of a story
That would never be told.
All the while I dreamed
Of a faraway place that held the elixir
When a cup from the well of hereness
Flowing in my bosom
Was all I needed.
