Leaving and Living

Many a time, I have wondered what it would feel like

To just get up and leave;

Leave the life I know behind,

The limitations and daily huddles;

The depressions and lack.

To leave and travel towards a safe haven.

Towards the better life that’s always out of reach,

And happiness that seems to elude me.

Of seeing new places and new faces

And learning new things with every breathe.

I’ve been dreaming of living

Of putting aside the fears and anxiety

And living beyond mere existence.

I’ve been dreaming of loving–

Of letting go in another’s arms

And allowing someone else in.

I’ve been thinking a lot of late

Of life and my future state.

How everything I want in life seems

Far and hidden in the future.

Oh! How much I have dreamed of a better life

And how little I have acted to get it

I stopped dreaming…

For I realised how many dreams I’d dreamed.

I’ll start living…

For I’ve realised the only way dreams can live

Is by abandoning wishes.

I stopped wondering how leaving would feel like;

It matters little that I wonder

If I remain in my head.

Now, I chose living over leaving

Now the dreams I dreamed long ago

Are my new reality.

The ‘wonderings’ I’d bottled up

Started manifesting, when I gave up fear

and the limitations it brought.

And now I’m not just living each day–

I’m learning to live better.

Author: Joel